Saturday, 24 May 2008

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  Save Me, 'Cause I Can Never Float, Sinkin'

  I'm trying to keep my head up and keep on smiling in the face of adversity, but the wider I smile, the harder it becomes to hold back the tears. Everything is turning upside down; just when I think things will get better, they seem to get much worse. Sure, they're not as bad as they could be, but they certainly aren't as good as anyone feels they should be.

  I'm at that point where wants and needs collide and fewer of both are met. The worst part is that I can't even express how I feel for a word or a look could act as a catalyst in the eye of the storm. So for now I bottle everything up and bite my lip until it finally all comes exploding over the sides of my life, spilling onto the lives of everyone around me, staining important documents and soggying cherished photographs.

  I just don't know what to do anymore. I know the "right, Biblical" thing to do is to hold on because God will prevail, but anyone who ever gave that advice (myself included) may have had a tendency to forget just how hard "holding on" really is

  Right now, from the bottom of my heart, I covet your prayers! Please, just pray for everything to be made whole and new again and that I would have the strength to be strong and perservere! I find I'm losing much needed patience and I need it back very soon!

  Thank you!

  Blessed Even If She Can't Always See It,
  Aisha

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